In Memory of Baby Mac


174 comments:

Bethany and Cameron said...

Oh that was amazing...I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face as I watched that. I am so grateful for the gospel and my heart goes out to that sweet couple as they cope with their loss. They must be an amazingly strong couple to have been chosen to receive such an angel and have to immediately give him back to his Heavenly Father. I can't imagine the emotions that are involved in an experience like that. Our prayers are with you...

arianne said...

that was an amazing video. it is amazing how many lives this little guys has touched. what a beautiful little boy he is.

our prayers are wtih your family.

Jeff and Melissa: said...

I do not know you - nor you me. A friend told me about your blog. Thank you for not making it private. I am in tears, and while I feel so much sadness in my heart for your heartache, I also feel an overwhelming amount of love surrounding this situation. What a profound experience Heavenly Father has trusted you both to go through as parents. I admire you and feel honored to have witnessed your tribute to your sweet baby Mac. I will not soon forget this... -Melissa

Amy said...

You do not know me but we share something in common. Six years ago I went to my last Dr. apt and was told that our little girls were gone.
I am so greatful for your strength.
I feel your heartache as I sit here in tears. He truly has a special mission, how lucky you are to be his parents.
Thank you for sharing your story.
You will be in our prayers.

Shell said...

I am a friend of a friend of a friend I am so glad you shared your story it is very insperational. It also gives me more appreciation for my parents. They lost 3 babies one was 2 days old one 1 day old and one 5 days old. It is so much better at the hospital now I am glad you got time with him. They have one picture of one baby and never got much time with any of them. I am sorry for your tremendous loss.

Chris Linds & Maddie said...

Cali
We Love you so much! He is beautiful, and you and Josh are so strong! I admire your faith in Heavenly Father! I Love You!!
Linds

Erica said...

Saying that my heart aches for you does not do justice to what I feel for you and what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. What a sweet angel baby Mac is. Thank you for sharing this beautiful video with us that is heart-wrenching and heart-warming all at the same time.

4funboys said...

thanks for sharing your amazing story... you're in our prayers!

Anonymous said...

Your baby son is a lovely little guy. Please know that my prayers will be with you. Thank God for the comforting arms of the many people who are reaching out to you in love. I came to your story through "Bring the Rain" and know you will find love and truth as you share in this amazing community of God's love. My heart aches for your loss yet praises God that you choose to honor Him in this storm.
Gently, Michal Ann McAllister

Hinckley Family said...

WOW! I love you guys. I know Macs life was so specail to all of us. I look at the pictures and remember how I felt when I was there with you and him. With out any words or deeds, he strengthened me and my testimony. Its amazing what the spirit can teach from soul to soul. I am greatful for what I learned from you and Cali and about you two. You are both amazing people. I know how much his memory will bless our lives forever, and the lessons he brought with him are priceless. I hope Cali heals fast and your hearts will be comforted by our Savior. PLEASE let me know if I can ever do anything, even if its cleaning your toilet, or baking you chocolate muffins! Love ya so much
Heather Hinckley

The Ovesons said...

I know that you dont know who I am but i am family of the Madsons/ovesons and I just want you to know that eventually you will stop hurting...never stop yearning for him but it dose stop hurting eventually but it dose take time. We lost our son about a year ago and I still yearn to hold him and be with him so much but i know he is where he needs to be but it dosen't change the fact that I love him and want to be with him. But the hurt eventually goes away. It may seem like it never will but draw on your father in heaven he will help you through i promise he will. He will take all of the hurt and saddness and yearning and make it a happy yearning and the hurt and sadness will fade. Don't be afraid to cry!! Cry all of the hurt away. Sometimes you may think that you are wheird or that it is not normal or when you see another baby you don't know how to feel but it isen't something wheird but eventually that will fade...but your love for him will never fade!! Even though I don't know you if you need something let me know www.sethsmandms.blogspot.com Lean on him who knows you best...and with time everything will be ok. It won't happen tomorow but it will eventually be ok and you will be so gratful for the little mirical that came into your life for such a short time and taught you so many things from the tiny time he was here.
Melanie

AnneMarie said...

Cali and Josh, what an amazing tribute. Nate and I are so sad to hear about your beautiful baby. We are praying for you too.

Melinda Jones said...

Josh and Cali,

I found your blog through Erin's, we used to work together at the MTC. I just want to offer you our sympathy. When my husband and I read about your experience we were in tears, moved by your strength and faith. Our prayers are with you.
-Melinda Jones

Ty and Laura said...

It is absolutly beautiful. What a perfect life. We love you guys so much and have been so lucky to have been touched by this experience. He was an honor as a namesake for Tyler because he was so very valiant. Thank you for sharing all of your sweet spirit with us. We love you and pray for you.

CNG 4 Utah said...

I am in tears as I watch this video. I wish I had the words to tell you how sorry I am for your loss, but I can see how much you've gained. What a special spirit he is, and an amazing gift. You are in our prayers.
-Mandy

Frazier Family said...

That last comment was from the us. We were signed in a different account. God Bless.
-Mandy

Colin and Ranie said...

This is a wonderful tribute. It is no wonder why little McKallister was chosen to come to you two. Your strength through this situation is beyond any I have witnessed. You're remarkable! Thank you for letting us share a precious moment with him while you had such little time to hold him in your arms. We love you so much!

Boaz Family said...

I am Laura McAllister's sister and I want you to know that your beautiful little Mac's spirit is touching so many people. He is a legacy and reminder to all of us that there is a God above who has a greater plan for us. Your strength as a family has made me love my own family more and I thank for your example and testimony of our Savior. May our Heavenly Father bless both of you through this grief and pain. You are in my prayers.

Love and prayers,
Joy Boaz

Nikki said...

I am a friend of a friend and I can't even begin to tell you how much your story has touched my life. I cried hours after watching this and thought about you and your family the entire night, and the next day. Your faith and strength is so amazing! You will stay in my thoughts forever. Thanks for sharing your story, and thank you Baby Mac for touching so many lives, and helping us all remember where we came form.

Daniel and Laci said...

You dont know me, but i found your blog through another friend, and i just wanted to say that i am so sorry for your loss. i am heartbroken for your family and i am truly inspired by your faith. you will be in my prayers.

Sara said...

I'm just a high school friend of Erin's, but I wanted to say that I'm so sorry for your lost. Mac is a beautiful baby. Your faith is so amazing. Thank you for sharing a wonderful tribute. My prayers are with you guys.

The Rowe Family said...

May God be with you! My heart breaks for your family!

Nate & Brittany said...

You don't know us but we wanted you to know that we are praying for you! The video was amazing and your baby boy is beautiful!! We are so sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing such a special boy with the world!

Liz said...

I was told about your blog through a friend. I am sorry for your loss. As I watched your video, tears strolled down my face. He will be greatful to have you as parents. He will watch over and protect your family every day!
Liz-UT

Ashley said...

We are family, and we are so sorry for your loss. You will be in our hearts and minds everyday of our lives. You and your family are such good people and so strong. Mac is an angel sent to you and your family and you will be with him again in eternity where he waits for you. WE LOVE YOU ALL. Love the Fullmer family

Sweet Pickles said...

I am so sorry for your incredible loss. I offer you my sympathy and prayers at this most difficult time.
I admire and have been touched by the strength and faith of you and your family. Best wishes.

Jade Photography said...

You are such a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing. Our prayers are with you.

Keelee & Jackson said...

You don't know me but I just want to thank you for sharing that. I was truly touched and felt the spirit so stong as I read and watched your video. What an amazing reunion it will be the day you are together again!

Barnson Family said...

I found this blog through another and I just wanted to say that I am so very sorry for your loss. Mac was such a cute little boy and I am so very glad that you were able to spend the amount of time you had with him. As I was watching the beautiful video, I realized that I recognized you and your parents. I lived by you in Sandy for just a little while. My maiden name is Amber Olson. Anyways I wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your strength and faith is amazing and I admire it.
With deep sympathy,
Amber Barnson

The Gray Fam said...

Hey guys, I just wanted to let you know that Jeff and I have been praying for you often. Our hearts go out to you at this time and I want you to know that we are hear for you if you ever need anything. It is amazing that this special spirit has touched so many lives in the way that he has. What a blessing he is! I know that you know that you will see him again someday and what a great reunion that will be. Please do not hesitate to call us if you need anything. Were close by and are always willing to stop by.

Kim said...

My heart is so full of love for your little family. Although we are strangers...my prayers are with you. My husband and I lost a baby three months ago. The pain is so overwhelming, but the knowledge of the gospel plan helps ease the pain, and the knowledge that we will be with these precious spirits again is so comforting...and gives us something to work towards. Love to your little family from mine. Mac is a beautiful boy...hope he will run and play with my little Peanut.

The Rowe Family said...

Hi, I left a message earlier, but I was very emotional after seeing the slideshow and couldn't write much! I came to your blog from "Audrey Caroline's" blog. We are strangers, but I have been whispering prayers for you since I read about baby Mac yesterday! Mac was beautiful and I can't begin to imagine the pain! Your strength is a witness to everyone! Bless you, Emily

lindsay said...

What beautiful pictures of a Forever family! We love you all...

Tiffany said...

You don't know me, I am a friend of a friend. I am so touched by your strength through this unimaginable loss. What a wonderful mommy and daddy you must be to have been chosen before this life to help Mac complete this part of his mission. What an incredible spirit he must be to have come and gone so quickly. So perfect that all he needed was a body. Thank you for sharing your story. It has helped strengthen my testimony, and makes me want to try harder to do better in my life. All my love and prayers,
TW

The Brown Family said...

You don't know me, but I grew up in Sandy (Howard Dr) with Emily Dallin and knew your parents. I am so sorry for your loss. The video you created is absolutely beautiful and so touching. I sat here crying for your loss and for your strength. If only all of us could have the faith that you have. Mac will bless your life eternally and will watch over you always. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers and thank you for sharing your story with the world. Your strength is truly amazing!
Kerryne (Christensen) Brown

Aunt Nicky said...

My sister put the link to your blog in a post on her blog. The video is AMAZING! I cried, I can't even imagine going through what you have had to go through! My thoughts and prayers will be with you and I will pass the link on! The Lord works in mysterious ways and we need to cherish our moments. My family has gone through devasting news, so we know the just feeling but nothing like that so my heart goes out to you! Your strength is AMAZING!!

Anonymous said...

I am so grateful for your blog and the reminder it has given me of our Heavenly Fathers plan. What an honor it must be that you be chosen to carry one of his choice sons so he coud receive his earthly body. Thank you for sharing.

April said...

You don't know me, I know Erin....I am sobbing....I am SOOOOO sorry...I can't even begin to imagine how painful this has been but it is sooo comforting to know you have such a strong family support. Not everyone is quite so lucky. Erin, well, I will just email you but what a beautiful video and its moments like these that just really puts life in prospective...

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Tammy said...

You don't know me, but I found your blog by way of the Madsens. You're so strong as a family. Isn't it great to know that families are forever and that we will see our loved ones again. I can't even begin to know what you are going through as I have not been in your shoes, but I do know what it is like to have kids and know feel the love that you have for them. My prayers are with you and your family and I pray that you will have peace and feel of the Savior's arms holding you along with your little baby holding you in your time of sorrow.

Jennifer said...

I don't know you, but my heart breaks for you. I had a miscarriage a few years ago and I wish people had talked about their experiences more. It seems to help to be able to talk to someone who has been through a simmilar trial. Your little Mac is beautiful! My prayers are with your family.

lou said...

Cali Lou, you have no idea how much I love you and your family. I'm so glad you two have the strength to get through this experience with your faith. I've cried so much for you and I pray for you always. I'm so grateful that you will all be together again. All my love, Kirsty.

Georges said...

I have never seen a more powerful video. I am sobbing. We have been praying for you, thinking about you, and talking about you for the past few days. What amazing examples you are of faith. Your experience reminds me to be more faithful and to be more grateful for the incredible blessing of eternal families. Please know how much we are thinking of and praying for you. We are so sorry for your loss but are inspired by your faith.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful family little Mac chose to come to. What a sweet spirit that brought into my day. You are so blessed to have been able to share that time with him. May Heavenly Father continue to bless you and your family thru this time. And may little Mac plant big kisses on his little siblings on their way to you. Families are Forever.

Jeni Clayton said...

Your video was beautiful! What a sweet little spirit. I am so grateful to have been able to glimpse the strength, faith, and courage that you have shown through this most difficult trial.
Thank you for allowing the spirit to dwell with me today as I think of your precious little one and his perfect life. Please know that you will truly be blessed for your amazing endurance. Heavenly Father knows your pain and he will comfort you.

JR and Kristi Royce said...

Thank you for sharing your amazing story. It is true that your son's little spirit has touched more lives (including a stranger such as myself) than some do in a lifetime. Mac must have amazing parents to be given such an experience. You are such a beautiful family!

Burt Bunch said...

We love and admire your family so much. Thank you for sharing this unforgettable experience, we are thinking and praying for you. Love you all!

Angie said...

You don't know me, but I am Eric Madsen's sister. I just want to let you know how truly sorry I am for your loss. I am amazed by your strength. I too lost a little boy, but it was earlier in my pregnancy. I know exactly what you mean when you said the veil was so very thin as you held him. I too felt that as I held my little boy. It has been 9 years, but my heart still aches as I read your story. I now have three more beautiful little boys, and I know that our little guy is watching over us every day. My heart goes out to you. It does get easier, but don't worry you won't forget him and the strength he brought to you and your family. Isn't it great that Families are Forever! I could feel the love of your family as I looked at your blog. You will be in my prayers.

Julia M. said...

I am praying for you. Thank you for sharing your experience with me so my faith could be strengthened. My heart is full.

Anonymous said...

i don't know you but I saw your blog on my sisters list and had to visit you. I am so very sorry for your loss of your sweet little baby. I know exactly how you are feeling because i lost mine 3 months ago today. His name is Isaac and we miss him. What a blessing and a learning experience it is to be a mother. What an honor and a privledge. Your perspective and insight in this hard time is beautiful. The Lord gives us strength and help to get through hard times and then when you can stand on your own again, you feel the loss of the extra help from him. But it is still there if you seek it. But that's still a little bit in the future for you. Mac is a beautiful baby and will always be a blessing to you. My heart goes out to you both and you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
tenderly, Rachel

Priscilla said...

I, too, only know of you through association (Mike Miller is my cousin). My heart breaks to hear of your loss. I loved how you expressed yourself so beautifully, poetically, during the slideshow. I can just imagine what it would have been like to be there. Thank you for sharing such a tender moment with everyone. During this time, lean heavily on the Lord. That's the only place to find solace from such a loss as this. You have such an awesome strength. I admire that in you both.

Priscilla

Keri said...

Josh and Cali,

You both have been on my mind and in my prayers. I just wanted to tell you how very proud I am of the both of you. Your faith and strength in such a difficult time is all but overwhelming! I just know that the Lord is walking with the both of you. He has his arms completely around you. Talk to him! Good times and bad; happy and sad; your little man is standing there with him and coaching you on. He knows how much you miss him and at times just can't understand. Little Mac is jst standing there waiting for you and for him the time will fly by. But be assured. He is preparing his brothers and sisters for the time of their earthly life with their wonderful mom and dad.
If you need anthing....taco's!! hahahah or whatever, please let us know..or Lance and Tiff. They will get the message to us. I Love You!

Keri Delgado

Anonymous said...

What strength the Hinckley family has shown. That is what families are for and as I have watched all of you kids grow up, I knew you would always be there for each other. As I ahve lost a few of my daughters to the ways of the world it enlarges me to know that Mac's eternal life is for sure . He came perfect and he left perfect. I know that he is youres for ever. May the Lord bless and make all your testimonies stronger as yours has done the same for me. Love, Aunt Jane Green

Jessica said...

Hey Cali and Josh, We are here in Park City and I thought I would check to see how many more loving and supporting comments have been posted. It is simply amazing to me to see the love and comforting words of perfect strangers. Baby Mac really has touched and strengthened so many people. His service was absolutely beautiful and Josh... what an amazingly big man you are. I always knew you were "big" but your strength and has brought a new meaning. You are a rock!!! I have never been so touched when I saw you sit there and wipe the tears from sweet Cali's cheeks. Both of you... your strength and faithfulness has taught me so much. I know baby Mac was smiling down on both of you. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. We love you guys.

Die Fingerle's said...

You don't know me. I got the blog-internet-address from Elder Nick Barfuss' sister. Elder Barfuss is serving in my ward in Germany.
I was so touched by the video and I am amazed how strong you are. Just by seeing the video, I felt the Spirit so strong.
All the best for you.
Pam from Germany

ashley said...

Families can be together forever. How grateful we are for that knowledge ... thinking of your family.

ArlaMo said...

Please know that your sweet video has touched my heart. Heavenly Father holds your dear one in his arms, where he waits to be with you again.

(I am Erin's husband Mike's oldest cousin on the Jones side.)

Katy said...

My heart aches for the both of you. Your video and story of baby Mac is so touching. Baby Mac is beautiful, and there is no doubt that you two will be with him once again.

Katy

The Baldwin's said...

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story with the world. I am definately changed forever! What a a beautiful baby and our prayers go out to your family...we love you!

carrie said...

I, too, am a friend of the Madsens. This story has touched my heart more than you could ever know. First, let me tell you how impressed I am by the amount of faith you both have shown. You both are so young....and yet so wise beyond your years. I wish I could say the same about myself at your age. So many people have learned so much by reading about your story. Your sweet and beautiful little boy has touched us all....even those who don't know you. After reading about you and grieving for you....I honestly feel like we do know you. I was reading this blog last week with my ten year old son. He saw the picture of Josh...and told me he knew him. I figured he was just saying that....and then he started telling me that he "was a lefty" and "played first base"..... When he saw the adorable picture of Baby Mac with the baseball glove....he said, "see, I told you, Mom". My son went to a baseball camp at UVU this summer, with Eric's son....and he thought Josh "was soooo cool". He, just being ten years old, was so touched by this story, too. He insisted we do the balloons on the day of the Memorial...and he is going to write a note for Josh and send it with Eric. My whole family has kept you in our prayers...and my children talk about your sweet baby, too. This was such a learning experience for all of us. Families are truly forever....and I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your story with all of us. Your bravery and strength is so amazing to us. I wish there was something we could do for you....but I do hope you can feel the love coming to you from so many of us. When I see the pictures of your family....I am so grateful for you to have that support as well. What a lucky little boy Mac was to be born to a family like yours. I'm not the best with words....and I'm definitely not the best writer. I hope I've expressed my feelings in a way that you know how very much your story has touched us and changed us all forever. There is no doubt, in my heart, that you two will be with your baby Mac again someday. :o)

Dave Morrill said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. What an awesome tribute to your son! Josh, your family has always been an example to me of what it means to be an eternal family. You guys are the best. Thanks for sharing this with all of us!

Randy & Rachel said...

WE LOVE YOU BOTH!! LET'S HANG OUT SOON.

Erin said...

Josh & Cali,

It brings me to tears to read these comments and see the impact Mac's short life has had on so many people. Josh, you said it perfectly when you said that Mac is a better missionary than we ever were or will be. You guys are so amazing and I'm so grateful for your example and the courage you had to share this heartbreaking experience with the world. It's been humbling to see how it has touched so many. YOUR strength and faith have touched so many. I just posted a little something (actually it's kind of a long something) on my blog that I want you guys to read. I love you guys!

With love,

Your sis Erin

Hanna said...

We don't know each other, but I am grateful to have been able to find your blog. You can tell that your precious little boy had a special mission on this earth, he was to bring about miracles. I think that it is amazing how strong you are, able to take pictures and cherish every moment. Without Eternal Perspective you could be saying, "why me?!" But, you were co-creaters with our Father and you gave your little boy an earthly body. May you have peace and know that he is resting with Him. God bless.

Chelsea said...

I am Bryce and Kayanna's next door neighbor. Bryce told me about baby Mac the day after it happened. My heart aches for you and your family. I hope you find comfort in knowing that there are so many of us out there praying for you. Mac is beautiful.

Natelli Johnston said...

I am so sorry for you great loss. I would like to thank you for sharing your sweet baby boy with us, what a beautiful tribute.

Anonymous said...

I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. My heart goes out to you both. And to your families. The video and photos are extremely moving. Thank you for sharing such a tender moment with the rest of us. May God bless you.

Anonymous said...

I love you and your family. Thank you for the blog. I am hoping that someday we will meet - if not in this life, then in the one to come.
I hope, too, to meet Mac. He is beautiful. He will be amazing when you see him again.
:)

Lady Ui said...

Awesome spirit your son has and has touched two special people, Josh and Cali, trusting them with his gentle and tender soul. Just for a moment he came and yet will never forgotten.

So greatful for the Plan of Salvation, we as members have in our lives. Being able to see loved
ones again.

Cali, don't worry its a promise that will be able to raise him again, and that love you have for your son that day he was born it will be even greater.

kathleen said...

Cali and Josh
I'm yet another person whom you do not know but my heart has been touched by your seperation from your sweet baby. My tears have flowed freely has I've viewed, read and listened to your story. I know with a surety that our lives are eternal. Your sweet little Mac's spirit will continue to be enlarged and enlightened as he awaits his reunion with you. What a glorious time it will be when you have the privilege to raise him! In the meantime, my prayers will be added to so many others who love you, that you will be comforted and reassured during this time of waiting. With sincere love and sympathy, Kathleen Mortensen

Paige said...

Wow! I have watched that probally a dozen times and it feels like the first everytime. That was a beatiful tribute. My prayers are with you.

The Dalton Fam said...

hi Josh, this is Eliot Dalton from your first year of ball at UV. My wife and I have been heartbroke at the loss of your beautiful baby boy.words cannot express the love we have for Mac and the impact he has had on our lives. josh, my mother went through a similar experience with my older brother Eric who passed shortly before birth, and it has always been an emotional topic for our family. The thing that makes it easier for us is our belief in Jesus Christ and the Atonement, knowing we will oneday be together as a family. I know that you, Cali and Mac will be together again someday. We love you guys and pray that God will always look over, protect,give you the strength you need. I love you Hink,
Eliot

Carrie Malmberg said...

My husband and I have also gone through the exact same experience you are going through. Our little boy Jaxen was stillborn 3 years ago July 5th. Healthy pregnancy, no complications, and a complete shock with the medical reason still unknown! It was so hard, it still is hard some days! Relying on our faith is the only way to get through. You guys are amazing examples of great faith and strong testimonies. I am so sorry! All I can say from someone who has experienced this is that it's very normal and OK to go through the entire grieving process which has so many emotions, we know! One day your pain will subside and it gets a little easier every day but it takes TIME. Today, I can honestly say that I would do it all over again. I am a different person being his mom. I have a lot to work towards and a purpose that is eternal! We had a little girl exactly a year later and it has helped so much being able to experience the innocence of a child in our home. It reminds me daily what an influence our little boy still has in our family. We remember him daily. We celebrate his short life at every holiday. I'm so lucky to be his mom. You guys were chosen and are so blessed to have this trial/experience with your celestial child. I'm sure you know that. You're in our prayers! We're strangers and we love you! One day we'll raise our little perfect babies together. Hang in there! Love, Carrie Malmberg

bethany said...

Although we don't know one another, I felt like I needed to leave a comment to tell you both how grateful I am for sharing your sweet little one with me. He has helped stregthen my testimony of the Atonement and has helped remind me how grateful I am to have the faith we do!
I cannot express the words to say how I feel for you. You have been constantly on my mind and in my prayers since I found your blog. I don't know what you are going through, but I do know that you were chosen by our Heavenly Father to have such a precious little boy!
You both are amazing people and parents. Little Mac is so blessed to have you as parents. Thank you again for sharing him with me.

dawnkp said...

Josh and Cali,
What an Honor to be the parents of a perfect person. Mac is so beautiful. Watching that video and reading your story was one of the hardest things for me. You two are so strong. I pray for you continually. Having the Gosple of Jesus Christ in your life is so comforting in times of trial like these, but the pain is still there.
When you see him again, and get to raise him, it will be such a sweet and joyous time. I admire you. It is amazing how you can love someone you don't even know or have not met, but I feel so much love for you. Thank you for sharing your experience. It has really helped my testimony grow.

Anonymous said...

I came across this blog by way of my cousins and it is truly an inspiration! You are both so strong to be able to go through this experience with such a light in your eyes. Stay close to our Heavenly Father. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

Rob and Susie said...

Josh and Cali,
Much like others who have written you, I am a stranger who has been deeply touched by your story and the spirit of your beautiful baby boy. I have followed your blog and watched the videos over and over each time in amazement of how you feel the spirit as strong every time. Although this is a awful hard time for you, you are truly blessed to have been the parents of such a beautiful baby and spirit. I will continue to pray for the sorrow and hurt to be barable and that you are watched over and continually feel the comfort and warmth of our heavenly father and Mac. God Bless You and your family.

windhula said...

"And if Christ had not risen from the dead, or have broken the bands of death that the grave should have no victory, and that death should have no sting, there could have been no resurrection.
"But there is a resurrection, therefore the grave hath no victory and the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ."
Mosiah 16:7-8

Anonymous said...

Mac was granted his wings into heaven. On this day an angel opened the book of life and wrote down our baby's birth. Then she whispered as she closed the book, "too beautiful for Earth".

Author unknown

Marc and Megan said...

I just wanted to thank you for creating this blog, as it has been a source of great help for me tonight. My husband and I just lost our twin girls this week, born prematurely. We are in shock and trying to figure out how to make plans for a memorial and burial. It is so hard. I have found so much comfort knowing we're not alone. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

Amanda said...

It is amazing to me the love that people have for one another. I don't even know you, yet I feel like I do. I have been in tears since Sat when I read this blog. Thank you for sharing your story. I lost a little one almost a year ago and though times are tough, I know that I will be with them again and have the opportunity to raise them.

The Royal Family said...

I just want to tell you how your story touched me. I have also been inspired to sign up to be able to help people like you and be that photographer, you have given me strength. Thanks for sharing!

Nat and Grant said...

I don't know your family but am so touched by your story. You are so brave and I think you and your family are amazing. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

I don't know your family, but I am sooooo touched by your story. You are so brave and I think that you and your family will be blessed again. How could it not to such a strong and amazing family! Your story has made me appreciate all that I have even more. Thank you!

Sarah Garner said...

Josh & Cali,

I am yet another person that doesn't know you, but is praying for you.

My heart is so broken for you. I know a lot of what you are feeling right now. My daughter, Savannah, was stillborn at 35 weeks on February 9 of this year. They never were able to find a reason. My amazing dr. told me "There just isn't any other reason, other than she didn't need to stay."

Sometimes that is hard to hear, even though we know it's true. I've never felt such conflicting emotions in my life: happy for her that she gets to serve her mission in a place where Satan can't get to her and she never has to feel hurt, fear or pain. Broken hearted for us because we want our little ones here with us.

It does get better. The pain never goes away, but you gain the ability to be happy again, especially with the knowledge of the Atonement and eternal families.

I can think of no better way to honor the memory of your valiant little boy than to bless the lives of others as you obviously are. He may not be here physically, but his mission spans farther than just the spirit world. He is touching lives here on earth too. Much more than any of us imperfect souls ever could.

Experiences like this remind me of what a celestial gift mother/fatherhood is. You don't have to have physical time with your children or "get to know" them to love them. You always love each child the same. And it's because of the amazing gift of pure Christ-like love that comes with the package of each little spirit that is sent to each family. It gives you just a little taste of how much the Savior must love us.

Your strength and faith has touched my heart and I will be praying for you.

Of all the gifts little Mac comes with, the greatest of all will be the chosen, noble boy that will be waiting with open arms when you are one day reunited.

Until then, if you ever need someone to talk to that understand please feel free to email me:
zeeneye@gmail.com
I'm not that far behind you in the healing process, so I understand.

With love and prayers,

Sarah Garner
Savannah's Mommy

The Wood Family said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you. I know that everything happens for a reason and that you will see Mac again!
Love,
Jennica (Bawden) Wood

Braydon, Jessica, Bentley and Lincoln Bonham said...

Thank you for sharing little Mac with all of us and his story. You can tell he is such a beautiful, amazing, special little boy! I am so, so sorry for your loss.
I look up to you both because I don't think I could have the faith and courage you have shown if I were in the same circumstance. There are so many who don't know you (me included) that Mac has touched and I will never forget the way it has influenced my life for the better.
You both are truly blessed and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Chelsie said...

I am so touched by your story and your strength. I am so sorry for you loss and am greatful for the knowledge that we have of eternal families. Your family is in our prayers as you endure through this trial, my heart goes out to you and I know you will be blessed in your strength that will forever influence all of us.

Chris and Erin said...

I enjoyed and cried through every word and photo on your blog. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. You two seem so young to have to endure one of lifes worst challenges. I have hope for you both as I saw you clinging to one another in the midst of all your heartache. I wish you the best and I am so sorry for your loss!!

ellisboys said...

Thank you for allowing others to share in your knowledge of our Fathers plan. What a comfort to know that in the resurrection you two will have a brand new baby to raise to his state of perfection. A child to raise without the evils of this world. To have a trial be the terrible two's. Nothing can make this loss easy but knowing that our father has a plan much bigger than we know, makes it do-able. Good luck in all your endeavors, and you are in my prayers.

MoRgAn! said...

What a touching tribute, and what a beautiful baby boy. May God bless and watch over your family during this time and the times to come. Thank you for sharing such a heart warming, tender, heart breaking moment with us. The gospel is so amazing and may its trueness help you through this. What a special couple to be able to have such a special angel be given to them, if only for a very short time. Your family is in my prayers and may you find the strength to carry on.

Morgan Groft

The Curtis Family said...

What more can I say that hasn't already been said? My eyes are blurred with tears... You guys are amazing examples of faith. I hope this blog brings some comfort to your heartache. Thank you for touching our lives through yours and your little boy's life. Much Love, Scott and ShaRee Curtis

tmbjensen said...

I just want to add my condolenses also. I do not even know you, but as I read your story, I was in tears. What an angel. I want you to know that I felt your love of the Savior in those pictures. YOur story made my own testimony grow. I know that GOd lives and he LOVES each of us. Jesus Christ is the only way we will make it back to live with our Father in Heaven. Your little boy must have been so righteous that he didn't need to experience this mortal life. He is PERFECT. He is back with our Savior, and what a neat feeling that is for you, to know that he is Safe and now he is the one watching you guys. My love goes out to you. What neat people you are.

lizy_girl said...

What a gift. Thanks for sharing your story. It has helped all of us be grateful in all things. Thank you.

Sarah L. said...

Sorry for blog peeping but I had to. My husband and I cried through the whole thing. I am so grateful for the gospel and for the special spirits that we are given. That little boy must have been so special that he didn't need to be tested, he just needed a body. Thanks for the story and for letting us share it with you all.

Kandis Broadhead said...

We don't know each other, as I found your blog through a friend of mine. I couldn't help but cry as I read, and watched, and listened to your story. I am so grateful that I had the chance to see this, because it puts my blessings into prospective. Thank You for Humbling me. Isn't wonderful that we have the Gospel to help us know that we can be with our families again. God Bless you, and your sweet baby.

Adam and Sarah said...

I, too do not know you. I have a feeling this has been passed around to MANY people & will be passed along to many more. Thank you for sharing this with so many people that don't even know you.
It has touched me to see your strength at such a heart breaking loss. Seeing your testimony -- knowing that one day you WILL be with your son again.
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I am grateful though, that you DO have the knowledge that you can see your son again. And that you can raise him in the eternities. Thank you for putting so many people's lives (mine included) in perspective and reminding us of the wonderful blessing our Heavenly Father has given us -- eternal families.
God bless you and may you hold on to the peace & strength that Heavenly Father has helped you feel. You are in our prayers.

Kristin said...

Thank you so much for sharing your special story. One I will remember forever. Your sweet little boy has touched so many lives. I have been sobbing and feeling so badly that you and your family have had to go through this and I don't even know you. As I watched the videos and read the sweet words I could feel the spirit and know that all is true that the church of Jesus christ of Latter day saints is true. That Christ lives and that we will live with him again. You will see your little Mac again we will all see our loved ones again. Thank you thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. You are in our prayers.

Anonymous said...

I sat in bishopric meeting, just a few short hours ago, as our bishop shared with us a beautiful story of a couple who lost their child, very similar to your circumstance. The services were held tonight.

On a "red eye" flight home, this baby's grandfather just so happen to be on the same flight as Elder Richard G. Scott.

He didn't want to pester Elder Scott, but over and over felt the spirit encourage him to discuss the matter with him.

As he crouched in the isle way of the packed plane, Elder Scott put both hands on this good brother's shoulders, looked him in the eye and said, "Your daughter will raise her son in the resurrection. She will have the blessings of motherhood again in the afterlife.”

He went on to say, "She needs not question anymore, 'Why?' She will have every blessing, otherwise experienced now, at a later time."

When I got home from bishopric meeting, I went in to kiss my wife goodnight and she told me of your blog, with no prior knowledge of my experience this evening.

Our Father in Heaven works in funny ways, may he continue to bless you.

Big hug...

amyday said...

Hello. Like many others, you do not know me. My sister told me about your blog. Three years ago this week, she lost her little boy when he was only five days old (very unexpected). We all got to hold his sweet little body in the hospital after he had passed away as well. It is amazing how much their spirit fills the room! It was so peaceful. I cannot imagine how it must feel to be the mother (or father) of child who has passed away, but I do know that you will be reunited once again. I also know that time heals all wounds. My sister now has a beautiful little girl, that she may not have otherwise had. We cannot imagine life without her. Thank you for touching both my sister and I with your story. May our Heavenly Father bless you and your family. Thank you for touching us. Our thoughts our with you. Amy

Cody and Brooke said...

I came across your blog, you don't know me but I just wanted to let you know that by reading about your sweet Mac and your faith in Heavenly Father's plan you have increased my own faith. You are an amazing family and your Mac is such a sweet little baby. Thanks for sharing with the world your faith-building experience and your love for your son.

Heather said...

I am a friend, of a friend, of a friend and came upon your blog through a link on theirs and I must say I am amazed and greatly admire your strength and courage. I too am glad you did not make this a private blog. Thank you for sharing your private and personal experience with us. It makes me sit back and remember how special our families are and that they can be forever. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Mac is a beautiful little boy

Grant and Alli said...

You guys are so strong and amazing..you don't know me, but I love what great examples you are to all of us...I am so glad we have the gospel in our lives and can be eternal families!

ThE dAvIs FaMiLy said...

I cannot express how this blog and story has touched my life. After crying for an hour and a half straight, I shared this with my husband and we agreed to say a prayer for you and your family. I am so sorry, and admire you dearly.

Natalie said...

You guys are amazing. I don't even know what to say. Like many others, I don't know you but felt like I needed to comment. Thank you for sharing such a special story with the world. I pray for comfort, strength, & happiness for many days to come. This precious child has left an imprint on my heart forever. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through.

Allred Fam said...

I am another stranger among the hundreds of those who I see have commented. Just wanted to tell you what a beautiful blog dedicated to your little guy, what a beautiful angel he is, what beautiful photos you have of him and the funeral and you and your husband at this time. they will be cherished!! I have cried for you and what you and your husband have and will go through together, although what else in this life will bring the 2 of you closer together than this experience... esp. after only being married for such a short time. I cried as I looked at your pictures and remembered and could see in my mind those exact same pictures, those exact same feelings, those exact wonderful people there to support me, the dressing of my baby, my husband sitting there with me, his dedicating the grave in Babyland, which took place for me 8+ years ago after we lost our daughter who was 2 days old. Please know the hurt does go away, you will have joy and peace, although it takes time. Take care of yourself, know there are those out here who are thinking of and praying for you. Beth

Anonymous said...

Dear Mac,

Thank you for sharing your soul. You have instilled a great sense of gratitude for my own child. Please watch over your mum and dad and comfort them in their greatest times of need. Thank you over again for your ultimate sacrifice. It will be gingerly remembered by many, for years to come.

All of our warmest, most loving thoughts are with you and yours...

PETE said...

I woke up my 1 yr old and held her after reading this. I hate what happened, but I love being reminded of our eternal perspective and the blessing of being families forever. Thanks Josh and Cali for your sacrifices and for your examples.

God Bless.

The Sturgills said...

Thank you for sharing your story. What an amazing little man you have - my thoughts & prayers are with your family.

Anonymous said...

I stumbled upon your site and shed many tears...both for the loss of your beautiful son and as the memories of our own experience 5 1/2 year ago came rushing back. I love the part in the video about Mac guiding his brothers and sisters safely to your family...what a wonderful thing to look forward too! It's comforting to look at my own children and know that they have a very special guardian angel watching over them. Yours will too...

I also wanted to pass along a website that might interest you. We had a picture made of our daughter and it is such a wonderful reminder to us of where she is and that she is being well taken care of. http://safewithhim.com/

Krainich Family said...

Oh Josh and Cali how my heart breaks for you. How my heart wishes I could take away your pain. This is Angel James's mom. James too is buried in Larkin. His birthday is on the 26th of June. Looks like we have some things in common. I have read your story and tears are streaming down my face that we have to face such trials at such a young age in our lives. You are a beautiful couple full of strength, I can see it through your pictures. THank you for sharing your story, and Mac's story. What a great little guy. I am so sorry you had to come home with empty arms. I love you and don't even know you. I hope to get to know you in the future. If you ever need anyone to talk to or complain to, I will understand. I will be here if you need me. Much Love
Michelle
james mom
xoxox

Aubrey and Chris said...

While I have never met you and never will, thank you for sharing your story. It is very humbling to watch a family endure what you did. In the darkest moments, I appreciate that you saw hope.

Jamie said...

I am grateful to have read your story. My heart and tears go out to you! Thank you for instilling a greater desire inside of me to be grateful for and take better care of the beautiful children that I have.
Peace be with you and know that you and Mac are touching lives.
Thank you,
Jamie
(blog peeper--Josh Linton's 2nd cousin)(saw a link on Alisa's blog)

Gourley Family said...

I was truly touched this morning. Your story is beautiful. I know the feelings of loss. You see, I have been blessed twice with angel babies. My daughter passed away at 5 1/2 weeks of life, and a year later, our son passed away after 7 weeks of life, all spent at Primary's because of a heart condition he was born with. This page is a beautiful tribute, and what a beautiful baby. My heart goes out to yours, and know that this day, I grieve for your Mac.
Heart hugs,
Emily

Amy said...

I am so sorry you have had to go through this. As a Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Photographer it is nice to know that the work we do brings comfort. I wish you all the happiness in the world and continued healing.

The Gneiting Nothing said...

Cali i am so sorry for your loss, my husband scott and i have the same story. my husband and i found out we were pregnant shortly after we were married. and after a fun long pregnancy we lost our little boy. it was so sudden, and i never thought at the age of 20 i would be planning my first childs funeral, it totally sucks. i just wanted to let you know i know just what your going through and i am here for you. i wish i had your number so i could call you. i want to be here for you. and your little baby is so sweet and beautiful. i am so proud of you cali and i love you and if you need anything pleas call me 949-375-8133. scott and i just burried our son last saturday aug 16, 2008. i am so greatful for the gospel and to know that i'll be able to raise my little boy again, it might not be for a while but i will be able to and so will you. i'm so sorry you had to go through this cali. i am sitting her just crying my eyes out not knowing what to say i just am so sorry that this happened to you. it totally sucks. i love you cali and if you need to talk i seriously know what your going through and i just want you to know i think your little mac is so beauriful. love ya cali and stick in there i am sure it gets easier, and remember every time you go to the temple you will be so close to your little mac. that is what keeps me so stong is knowing that i can go to the temple and be with him. i love you and i am praying for you.

amy joy kiser gneiting.

Jenny said...

I pray for your beautiful little family. We are so lucky to have the gospel in our lives. Your little Mac is absolutely beautiful. This site is amazing. Thank you for sharing your story with us. It always helps to find another angel.

Parker's Page: www.parkerdaniel.blogspot.com

Michelle Bentham said...

Josh and Cali,

Erin came over to my Heart to Heart blog which is a place for grieving moms (www.hearttohearttransformation.blogspot.com) and sent me your direction. My daughter and I watched your precious testimony of faith and love and loss tonight and wept for you, with you and over you as I prayed and praised God for the way you shared about life, truth, God and love in the story of Baby Mac.

Precious. Heartwrenching. Lovely. Bittersweet.

I have not lost a child at or just before birth, but I know the heartache of a mother who has suffered the loss of her precious child.

A few months after my 17 year old son passed, I had the opportunity to walk through a similar story to yours with a young woman at our church. I was at the hospital while she was in labor, helped her select music for the service and walked for more than a year with her through her grief as we met weekly and sought God's Word to heal our broken hearts.

I do not know the depth of your pain as I have not walked in your shoes, but I know the God who carries you now and cradles your baby in heaven.

I pray you know His peace, His love, His comfort and His mercy in the ups and downs of the days ahead and that He would bless you with a home that is filled with children, with laughter and with love all the days of your beautiful lives. We have a better hope in Christ, and a promise that helps us to endure even the darkest moments after the most unnatural death - the leaving of our precious child. He is your strength - Hold onto Him - He won't let you go.

Blessings and love.

Lynne said...

I came across your blog through the blog award site and have been in tears this morning just looking at the first slide show. Very touching. Just admiring your apparent strength as you shared these moments with your family and friends.

Godd Bless -
Lynne in Illinois

Jo said...

Cali and Josh. Thank you for sharing your story, Mac's story. I lost my daughter in 2005 due to ectopic pregnancy. I understand your pain. A pain that no parent should ever have to feel.

May the journey to your new normal be gentle.

Jo said...

Cali and Josh. Thank you for sharing your story, Mac's story. I lost my daughter in 2005 due to ectopic pregnancy. I understand your pain. A pain that no parent should ever have to feel.

May the journey to your new normal be gentle.

Brian and Alissa Hansen said...

I don't know this family but ran into the blog through a friend who had a still born baby. This blog is beautiful. How comforting it is to know we will see our loved ones someday. Tears are streaming down my face. Me and my husband's prayers are with you during this hard time.

Andrea said...

Josh and Cali, Thank you for sharing your story. My heart aches for you. My little angel was born on the same day as yours. William Jacobus was born sleeping 4 weeks early. He, like Mac, was perfect in every way. I wish you the peace and strength that I am still searching for.
Andrea

Kylee said...

What a beautiful baby boy. I am praying for you and your family. I am sorry for your loss.

Kerra 'n' Josh said...

WHat a Beautiful little family you have!! I love the testimony and strenght that was shared through this video.... THank you!

CJ & Shalise Kelson said...

As many people have stated on this blog, I do not know you either. However I was very touched by your message, your perspective of this unique and emotional experience. How true, that through this experience we learn to be more humble, more loving, more grateful, to be remember the important things in this life. Thanks for sharing your message, it has been very inspiring and will not be soon forgotten.

Randi said...

As I sob my eyes out. I am so touched by your faith and your strength. He is such a precious little guy. I can't begin to imagine the magnitude of your loss. Thank you for sharing you son with all of us.

boltefamily said...

What a perfect tribute to a perfect little boy!

James said...

Josh,

I don't even know what to say. I just heard about what happened and found your blog. I am so sorry. I am so glad that you took those pictures so that everyone could see your son. He is so cute. I want to tell you that you and Cali are such an example for me. Just seeing those pictures and reading about your feelings shows me what real faith and hope are. Thank you for your strength. You and your family will be in our prayers. We love you both.

Anonymous said...

What amazing strength you two have - your son was a beautiful gift from God, even though he's not with you today, I pray that in the days ahead you find comfort in knowing he's in loving hands watching down on you.

Mandy said...

Cali - My mom only just barely told me the news. You two are absolutely amazing. So strong - Heavenly Father is definitely watching over you closer than ever.

Adrianne said...

I don't know you, but my heart aches for you. Please know what an inspiration you to so many people. I pray you receive the grace and peace that only God can give. May He shower you with his warmth and touch your broken hearts.

God bless you now and forever.

The Loesevitz Family - said...

I admire you so much for posting this for the world to see. I know how hard all of this has been for you, and it took a great amount of strength to post this. I hope you know that your posting this is such a great tool in helping others (such as myself) to stop and realize all the blessings we have. Reading your blog and looking at your pictures has helped me to be a better mom to my two children. I often take them for granted, and when I do, I stop and think about you, and Mac, and realize how selfish and ungrateful I am behaving, and I immediatly try to correct my thoughts and my behavior. I hope that The Lord eases your pain, as I cannot imagine how great it is. You're a wonderful, loving, caring, and compassionate mother, and you have forever touched my heart. I thank you for that.

Http://loesevitzs.blogspot.com

Megan said...

Hello....it may be that you never read these words. But i need to say, "i know". My son was stillborn last dec. and God, in the midst of that hurt, has been faithful. I hope to have my saon, Macsen Danforth added to your sons angel friends. I would also love to connect with you directly. i create memory boxes that have a heavenly presence, and would like to send one to you both. please look at what God is doing in my heart, life, and mourning. You are so being carried. I wish I could be there to hug you. I do care, you are my brother and sister in Christ. Please contact me....

He is perfect.....isn't that what all of us as parents want?

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Our prayers be with you and yours. :o(

Hayley said...

I found this blog through Melissa Cox. It just broke my heart. The same thing happened to my stepsister a few years ago, so I've witnessed firsthand how devastating it is.

This adorable child and his parents are in my prayers.

Shara said...

I found your blog through Erin Miller via Michelle Soderberg. What an amazing blog and tribute to your little son, Mac. It is beautiful. Thank goodness for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the hope, comfort, and peace it gives us -- families are forever! As I read, I sobbed because everything brought back memories of my own two little angel babies, Jordan and Cole, both stillborn. Unfortunately I didn't have a super photographer like Julie Williams around. I'm so glad you have those pictures!! They are so precious. My sister-in-law had Julie take photos of her baby, Elizabeth. She does an amazing job. My sister-in-law started www.angelbabiesinfo.com. Thanks for sharing your story.
Shara Vawdrey

Anonymous said...

Hi, I am from Australia and came across your darling baby through a friends blog.
I am reduced to tears here in my office at work...
I have a 4 month old baby of my own and can only imagine the depths of your grief.
Mac is a beautiful, darling baby... you are remarkable for sharing this....
Love and hugs to you
Jayne

Kristy said...

What a beautiful little boy! I am deeply saddened by this video and was not expecting the wave of grief I felt after watching it. I wish your family all the best and may baby Mac rest in peace!

Mandy Rose said...

As I sit here watching these precious videos of your beautiful little boy I can't help but cry. I can not imagine what you went through. Thank you for sharing this wonderful baby's story. You will meet again!

Hilary said...

You don't know me, I came across your blog through the Mellor's blog. What a touching and spiritual tribute to sweet baby Mac. I sit here with tears streaming down my face as I learned of your incredible story of faith, strength and love. Thank you for sharing. It may sound silly but this is just what I needed to remind me how precious children are and that they are entrusted to us by our loving Heavenly Father. I want to be a better mother. What a wonderful reunion you will have in heaven!

Colby and Steph Stringham said...

What a beautiful, perfect little boy. And what a blessing to have him apart of your life forever. I was told about this blog through a friend, and am so thankful to read it. Thank you for your strong testimonies and thoughts. This is blog is so inspirational and touching. I don't know you guys, but I feel so much love for you both and baby Mac! My husband and I will keep you in our prayers. You guys are amazing!

Love
Steph & Colby Stringham

Maili said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I went to middle school with Josh, and was looking at my friends blog, when I noticed yours.. I have spent the past 1/2 hour reading it and bawling my eyes out. My heart goes out to the two of you. Life is so precious, and I think sometimes we take it for granted. Your story truly has changed my life forever! Thank you. :] Hang in there, your strength is incredible. You are the perfect example of how all of our lives should be. You will continually be in my thoughts and prayers.

Love
Maili (Sellers) Marsden

Mindy said...

I came across your website a few months ago. A couple weeks later I came across another website about someone in your same situation. She has set up a blog about her journey to healing. It is really good. If you want to check it out it is journeytoheal.blogspot.com

Jana said...

I am a friend of Jessica Taylor's and found your blog through hers. I just want to thank you for sharing your experience and words of faith. It has been a month or so since I have had a good cry for my own angel baby Alice who went back to our Heavenly Father in December of 2006. It felt good to cry tears of sorrow and joy in her memory at the same time as I read the poems and listened to the music on your bog. One of my greatest fears in losing Alice was that I would forget about her and forget the feeling of loss that I felt at her death. Sharing moments like this with other families who have felt loss too, help to make it impossible for me to forget. So, thank you. I pray for you, and for all who have lost children, that we may feel those angel babies present in our homes and be worthy of a joyous reunion with them in the eternities.

Anonymous said...

I am not sure how I came across your blog but I am so greatful that I did. I am amazed at how strong you are. Thank you for sharing your story. I am sitting here crying for your lose but I can't help but think because of this how many people are being touched and blessed by this trial in your life. Your son has made a difference in so many lives and I know he will contiune to. Once again thank you for sharing.

LATIMER FAMILY said...

I don't even know you, but thanks for inspiring me to be a better person

Mikelle said...

You don't know me but i came across you blog somehow and i am so thankful that i did! What a beautiful, strong, perfect little boy! It broke my heart! I was sitting here while tears were rolling down my checks! I just gave birth to a little girl and i could only imagine how it would be to lose him. I'm sorry about your lost. It really inspired me. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sure it has touched many life's including myself.

Anonymous said...

Erin is married to my nephew; that's how I happened upon your blog - I was "checking on" Mac's cousin, Bryson. Almost 30 years ago I, too, had a stillborn son. Things are so different now. You took time to love and to grieve - a much healthier way to let go. I've hung on to so much for so many years... May God continue to bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing; that is part of His blessing.

Brittnee & Tyler said...

I just want you to know how grateful I am for your blog. Please know you are not alone.

On Dec 13 2008 our beautiful baby girl was stillborn at 33 weeks weighing 4 lbs 15 oz and 18 inches long at 9:23am, also due to an umbilical cord accident. Just like you I felt her move actively the Thursday morning before and by nightfall she was gone.

I take great comfort in knowing the plan of salvation and what it means for our baby girl. We will see her again and we will be able to raise our baby angels in the hereafter.

We have just found out that we are expecting again in November, I know this pregnancy will be full of anxiety and worry, I know that everything will be fine.

Thank you again for sharing your story and testimony. It has helped in many ways, some of which you will never know.

Brittnee & Tyler said...

I just want you to know how grateful I am for your blog. Please know you are not alone.

On Dec 13 2008 our beautiful baby girl was stillborn at 33 weeks weighing 4 lbs 15 oz and 18 inches long at 9:23am, also due to an umbilical cord accident. Just like you I felt her move actively the Thursday morning before and by nightfall she was gone.

I take great comfort in knowing the plan of salvation and what it means for our baby girl. We will see her again and we will be able to raise our baby angels in the hereafter.

We have just found out that we are expecting again in November, I know this pregnancy will be full of anxiety and worry, I know that everything will be fine.

Thank you again for sharing your story and testimony. It has helped in many ways, some of which you will never know.

Scott Vance (Mower) said...

When I heard Cali was expecting it was a very exciting time. As the baby matured and they found out it was going to be a boy the excitement increased again. That spring when I was going to one of Josh's baseball games with Cali and the family, Cali told me they were going to give Mac the middle name of VANCE. That is my mothers maden name and my middle name. I could hardly contain myself. What a great blessing. Josh and Cali would be such great parents, Both Cali's and Josh's family are supper people and very supporting. An ideal placement for one of God's special children.
We were out at Josh and Cali's house Wednesday night to check out Mac's nursery that Cali had just put the final touches on. MAC had the hickups so we were laughing and enjoying the fact that Cali was going to the Dr. in the morning hoping for MAC's grand entrance to our world. Unknown to us, God had called him home to Heaven. What a blessing for Mac but such a devistation to us. I can't express my love and respect that I have for the Hinckly and Maughan family. I am looking forward for the day that I pass through the vail and get to spend some time getting to know Mac and express our love for him.

Aleisha said...

Thank you so much for this inspiring story that reminds us all what the purpose of life is. I don't have the words to even describe the pain I felt for you, complete strangers, but caught a glimpse of eternity from it. It must be a hint at what our Heavenly Father and brother Jesus Christ feel for us.

God Bless You --- and everyone else who's shared their stories. Thank you so much.

Megan said...

I just wanted to let you know how touched I am by your story. As I read about your little boy, with tears streaming down my face, I was amazed at your strength in the face of such heartache. It reminded me once again how grateful I am to have the Gospel in my life and the knowledge that we WILL be with those we love forever! Thank you for sharing your story and inspiring me. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

The Maughans said...

HAPPY 11 MONTH BIRTHDAY BABY MAC!!!It seems like yesterday that you were born, and it also seems like a lifetime ago. But I wouldn't trade that day for anything in the world. I love you!!

Nanny

MendedHeart said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I pray the Lord will strengthen and comfort you. Hugs

Kelly said...

I can't imagine the grief you have experienced. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I pray the God of Comfort will give you joy in your lives and will restore your happiness. I know He holds you in His arms and has Mac with him today!

Bridget said...

Beautiful.

ekkrowdelight said...

I cannot tell you how touched I am to see this blog. I stumbled upon it while doing some research on medical issues, and when I read your blog... I was touched beyond words--- but not even halfway through the slideshow... Im in tears. HOW the parents of that precious little angel can stay so strong is bewildering. How the family came to support them and hold them, hold the baby-- amazing. May God Bless you and your family.. and I do dearly hope and pray that they try yet again for another child. God has given that baby a special purpose in Heaven... and may his Blessings be upon you now.. and forever more.

--Akira

Massey Family said...

All I can say is thank you for sharing this amazing video, Families can be Together for ever!!!

Anonymous said...

As a new mom myself, it is difficult to realize that God will watch over our children better than we could ever. I admire your stregth, but most of all that you know your son will one day be reunited with his family. God bless your family.

bryce and kianna said...

McKallister, we love and miss you and think of you all the time!!!

Becker Family said...

Thank you for sharing your sweet son with us! ALthough we are strangers we share something in common. My sister just lost her first baby last week at 37 weeks pregnant. It has been so difficult for her and for her husband and for the rest of our family. We have found comfort in your blog. That is why I am writing. I am wondering if it would be ok to use some of your quotes and poems in something special I am making for my sister and her husband. I know there are copyright laws and I just wanted to get your permission if that's ok. I also turned to your family blog and I am so happy you are pregnant again! I wish you the best with your new little one
Beckee Becker!
rebecker3@gmail.com

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abby jenkins said...

What a lovely tribute.
You have an adorable angel with you forever.
God Bless you!
XO

have you heard Rob Mathes' songs, they are very touching. William the Angel is my favorite.

Nikki said...

Congratulations BIG brother! Your sister is beautiful!

Anonymous said...

God bless you all. I am sorry for you lost. Your story is so touching and so loving. Your little angel will always be in our heart. I have a little one, Daniel McLeod Culp IV, we also call him "Baby Mac" ... I don't know what I would ever do without my Baby Mac. Love, Rosy

Ariann said...

A friend told me about your blog after hearing about a similar experience with my cousins loss. I will pass this on to them as your testimonies will help them with their loss. Thank you for sharing and for letting this be an awesome experience in knowing the Savior and his plan for us! I am proud that you choose to embrace the Savior during this difficult time instead of blaming him! Your lives will continue to be even more blessed then they already have been!
With Love
Ariann

Charlotte said...

you do not know me but I was sent to look at this blog from my precious cousin Katie that just lost her baby boy almost the same story as yours! Prayers will forever be offered in the behalf of those that loved these precious babies that passed the test and then returned home to there heavenly father!! You are amazing parents and if you haven't gone to my cousins blog it is taggandkatiepeterson, they would love any advice or help you give them through this hard time! They just found out on mothers day that the baby had no heart beat and she had it baby Zach monday at 7 pm! I know that people who have gone through the same tragedies can be a strength to each other! I know she would love to hear from you!! Thanks for your blog and sharing your precious story! All my love

TAYBEL said...

Happy 2nd birthday Mac! We sure do miss you and think about you often. We love you!

McKinley said...

This truly was so beautiful! Thank you for sharing this and keeping his name alive! The Gospel is so powerful and makes this blog so spiritual. I have never met you but I just came across this blog and cried. I could feel the love and peace you have around Mac! I love that you were able to share your experience. Thank you!

Kianna said...

Thinking of you little Mac. ♥

Rachel said...

I miss you Mac. You would be almost 3 years old and I wonder what you would be doing and saying. You would probably getting into trouble with your cousin Brock. haha. I love you and is thinking of you always. Hugs and Kisses. I can't wait to see you again:)

christina cormier said...

What happened to him